Psalm 39 Awareness

With self-talk I discuss in my head "what in the world are you thinking and dreaming?" If you cannot control you thoughts how can you control your words? The lack of self-control is an excuse used by the rebellious.

I was silent but stunned in my mind; these thoughts froze my body still. I kept quiet in shock; I didn't talk to anyone, not even You God. The silence rang loud and clear of conviction as this mental battle began.

My identity with its understanding and awareness inflamed my mind; I complained and justified but the anger grew: finally I spoke the truth to myself.

Lord help me to know my boundaries within my thinking pattern, as well as the capacity of my mental limitations; I need Your help to know this. These boundaries will enable my feelings of how empty and rejected they are by You.

It is You who appoints, then executes each new beginning as a promotion to a growth stage, as a support system, and a coping mechanism; this is not determined by age. I have learned this about me: when I think I am established and upright in understanding human behavior, I am totally empty and lead astray by my own desires. Stop and think about that.

My presupposition was that every individual can and does motivate himself to grow and prosper, but in what? This is the deciding factor in question, empty idols or servants of God? It is no wonder I am filled with anxiety and trouble; I collect unhealthy thoughts of self-centered luxuries. Who will benefit from this attitude and behavior? What time am I wasting or throwing away?

Lord, what am I waiting for? These expectations are painful and dreadful. I trust in You, but I know full well I must take action on my part.

Direct me out of this awareness of rebellious attitudes within me: do not enable me to make myself a disgrace in defamation. Do not allow me to display arrogant, self-righteous, or self-indulgent attitudes.

I am dumb-founded. I kept quiet because I never realized the battle within my thinking was a prerequisite to my behavior.

Psalm 38 Compassion

Lord, please do not reprimand me while You are angry with me: neither direct or instruct me in the shadow of Your wrath.

Your wounds tear me open and expose my broken relationship with You. I can feel Your power, means, and direction grievously stress me out.

There is no maturation in the insecurity that I feel when You are indignant with me; I feel no safe restoration or restitution in my identity or confidence because of the offense I have committed against Your precepts.

This perversity has provoked my ideology, and the comfort zones I have created; this grievous anxiety prevails over my self-confidence. I pray a new beginning or growth stage is being created within me.

These wounds of offense are corrupt because of my own stubborn mind set and stupid rebellion.

I am tormented; deeply depressed, I walk around feeling desolate all the time.

My self-confidence and hope is filled with despair: there is no maturity in my insecurity.

I feel inadequate, incompetent, indecisive, and my mental abilities are collapsing: the reality of my own confusion causes my cries of desperation.

Lord, I place my motives boldly before You; my sorrow is not hidden from Your all seeing eye.

The understanding and awareness of my identity aches because of the failure I feel inside: the insight I thought was in my confidence and knowledge is also gone.

The love of my life and close friends stand aloof when I expose my wounds: my family withdraws completely from me.

There are people who try and disturb the peace I find in You: they pursue my hurt by saying perverse things that are not true. They talk fraud and deceit all the time.

My choice is not to listen to the gossip; and I did not speak one thing against anyone.

I decided not to listen, and not to reciprocate.

It is in You Lord, I put my hope: You always hear me. You are my God.

Listen for my cry again Lord, or else they will enjoy making me miserable: whenever I make a mistake, for they are many, they magnify it out of proportion against me.

I am ready to stop these behaviors and attitudes; my anguish is ever before me.

I confess my wrong attitudes and behaviors; I am sorry for my sin against You.

These acts of hatred within my carnal nature are strong and deceptive. They can hate without cause and can react like someone I am not.

My own thoughts attack me and I begin a battle within myself. The confusion then leads to conviction, then that allows the need for repentance to rise.

Do not forsake me Lord, my God be not far from me.

Hurry and establish Your saving grace to me. You are the Lord of my transparency.

Psalm 37 Helplessness

I am not jealous of individuals who are apt to act out disgracefully; neither be envious of those who are conceited or self-righteous. This behavior is wrong.

These motives will be circumcised and the foreskin of the flesh will be stripped away and die.

I am confident and secure in Your ability, Lord, and choose to do well; I am established in You, my stability will be strengthened and grow into maturity.

I am satisfied in the presence of You Lord; I will reach the goals of my identity, self understanding, and personal responsibility.

I desire to make an honest commitment concerning my lifestyle and the motives of my behaviors to You Lord; I confide in You during prayer, I trust You to do great things to fulfill my life.

Your authority is established as insight to righteousness within me, my vindication comes with Your anointing.

I will becalmed and wait on You Lord, I embrace the pain and allow the genesis of maturity to be formed in me: I will not become angry, legalistic, or demand prosperity in my lifestyle or be purely self-absorbed.

I will cease from harboring resentment and relinquish the poison of rage: I will not enable negative behaviors to spoil my walk with You. These attitudes and behaviors will do harm to myself and to those with whom I associate.

Anyone who would purposely inflict harm or behave arrogantly for pleasure or the attention of it will be lost in his carnal nature. I choose to act righteously and possess confidence.

For a short time, those who condemn and walk in quiet will be dysfunctional. Trying to understand and analyze the condition of their attitudes and behaviors. But, will not be able to figure it out.

The individual who is rational in thinking, needy in circumstances, or humble in spirit will receive the confidence that is needed. They will be satisfied with abundant health, favor, and spiritual prosperity.

Yet individuals who choose to condemn and walk in guilt, and gossip deceitful lies against innocent people will themselves be bit with slander.

The Lord finds this ludicrous: He knows that the justifying adversity against people will be brought to an end.

Spiteful attitudes and amoral behaviors cause individuals to lose control and become destructive. They become determined to be judgmental to those who are depressed or deprived in their mental capacity. This is to nullify the influence of You within their communication.

This destructive effect will begin in their understanding of their own ideology; within their identity their judgmental attitudes will birth their own judgment.

The minimal suffering that a righteous person goes through is much better than the accepted and opulent lifestyle of these who are corrupt and damned.

The effectiveness and security of the condemned will be broken: but the Lord establishes and sustains His righteousness.

It is You Lord who orders our new beginnings and growth stages, mandates protection to those who are birthing, and directs those who are upright in their thinking: the inheritances of these are eternal.

I will not be shamed during times of calamity, stress, or sorrow: I will be satisfied during these times of destitution.

It is the individuals who choose to be wicked who loses their identity; the acts of hatred within their carnal nature will be transparent even to the young: their wickedness will end their anger will cease.

The wicked can emotionally and physically deplete the natural resources and energy; they do not care about anything or anyone. Knowing this, the righteous give mercy to all who need it.

The righteous is blessed and will inherit confidence; the wicked will curse their loss of identity.

The motivation and behaviors of a righteous individual is prepared, established, and applied by You Lord, who is our God. This person delights in learning the stability within God's ideal lifestyle.

There have been times I feel inferior or insecure, but I do not let go or feel rejected by God: the Lord establishes and sustains me with His power, means, and direction.

With each new beginning of a growth stage and right through to the very end I have not seen the righteous commit to himself, only to God and His righteousness. This attitude is what sustains them; they do not fail, nor are left destitute, nor are the young that they have birthed strive to be fed.

God is ever merciful and remains steadfast; the fruit of this birthing process is spiritually prosperous.

Stay clear from people who condemn and walk in their own guilt; live abundantly in the Lord's attitude and behavior suggested lifestyle.

You Lord love justice and will not relinquish Your child; You guard and protect him forever. But those who choose to be wicked will be cast out from Your presence.

I choose Your righteousness and want to inherit Your confidence and dwell therein always.

The words of the righteous manifests wisdom within their intellect, behavior, and motivation; they desire to be an instrument of Your praise. They choose to understand and teach the vindication and consequences of Your dynamics of life on this earth.

These practical rules for behavior are present in the understanding and awareness of Your Word; none of Your motivations or behaviors will vacillate.

Individuals who are corrupt scrutinize with vigilance the behavior and attitudes of the servants of God, they do not cleanse themselves before the Lord. These corrupt individuals strive to kill the ministry of God's servants, as well as their name and reputation.

The Lord will not abandon His servants to these who scrutinize, use corrupt power, or destructive motives; but will vindicate them or if need be guide them through a consequence.

I wait and have great expectations in You Lord. Your lifestyle and motives are perfect for me; You will enable Your confidence within my emotional thinking; when these who chose to condemn are disinherited. I will remember and discern this.

I have seen the oppressors in the tyrannical power inflict abuse to the unsuspecting, advertise and propagate the prosperity of their spontaneous growth; maturity within their emotional well being be set as a model for mankind.

Yet when provoked, these in power are weakened to a carnal nature and lost the facade: I look to counsel them and tried to console them, but they were gone.

I realized I must guard and protect any individual who is striving for spiritual wholeness and then discern the true nature of his character: for the ultimate results of striving for peace in God.

Yet there are others who have rebelled. They continue to be disgruntled and violate others to the point of desolation: the results of the striving are destructive, maybe even to the death.

The transparency of the Lord's salvation is in the righteousness of His people; You are our strength in the time of stress and adversity.

It is You Lord who enables protection, allowing us to birth the young, and deliver us from any carnal motivation: You are the avenger and will vindicate us from the cruel slanderers. You will comfort us when we confide and hope in You.

Psalm 36 Secure Love

The rebellious soul loves to condemn, walk in guilt, and willfully break away from God's just authority. The attitude is one of non-emotional conviction and denial. I do not see therefore I will not feel.

This soul flatters itself with conceit, knowledge, and self-indulgence until these faults are not acknowledged as hateful in his own eyes.

Any advice or reasoning away from his opinions are rejected and thoughts of his attitudes and behaviors are deceitfully justified. He has chosen to forsake the teachings of his youth. He has forgotten what is right and good before the Lord.

Because of this apathy, he lives in his well-established comfort zone: his lifestyle and motives are full of condemnation and a total rejection of opposing opinions. He embraces adversity and is an ideologue.

It is the Lord who gives the insight of enlightenment toward our motives. Only His stability can break the blind covering that is within our carnal nature.

It is Your righteous intellect Lord that reveals truth: Your vindication and consequences are beyond comprehension to the natural man. Preserve us Lord for Your design. Preserve Lord all living things for Your glory.

Your ingenuous favor is straightforward! Therefore as a builder of the family name I put my confidence and hope under the direct defense of Your protection.

I am satisfied with Your anointing and I accept Your will for my life. I choose to work in building love within Your chosen; with birthing and nurturing Your children, making repairs and restoring the brokenhearted, and teaching Your life choices to the chosen.

You are my choice of wisdom that builds the protective barriers around my life: in Your enlightenment and insight I see Your glory, through discernment I see the life of others as they truly are.

Please continue Your loving kindness to me; Your righteousness is what sustains the stable maturity within me, so that this emotional well-being dominates my life.

Psalm 35 Stability

I debate my controversy with You Lord, it is about individuals who are contentious and complain about me: help me to prevail against those that fight against me.

Repair my protective and fortifying defenses, and establish Your strength within me.

Stop this controversy that pierces my protection and cease the attitude that motivates this behavior that is used against me for persecution: Lord speak to my identity crises, and reveal that You are my health and spiritual prosperity.

Enable the disappointment that comes from these wounding insults, these attack my true identity in You: return their attitude of apostasy and bring confusion to their schemes.

Enable the threshing floor to press out the anger within their reality along with all its expressions and functions: enable the Holy Spirit to convict this attitude.

Enable the motives and lifestyles to reveal the ignorance within their thinking. Enable the Holy Spirit to convict them.

Without cause or reason they have entangled corruption that interferes and invades my identity and thinking.

Enable this destructive corruption to fall upon them as a consequence; enable this web of difficulty to be a cover that captures conviction to their soul; with this conviction let them fail.

My identity rejoices in the Lord: I rejoice in His spiritual health, and prosperity within my spirit.

Every ounce of my being says: Lord who is like You? Who can recover people who walk through depression? It is You who protects the deprived from these violent behaviors.

Ardent liars act out their violence with words; they accuse me of things I had no thoughts or motive to do.

They counteracted my altruistic motive with misery and sorrow, this was devastating to my identity; I feel this hurt of loss within the spiritual family and children.

What I do is wrap their grief and wounds of emotional pain with prayer: I fasted, but my behavior was mocked and thrown in my face.

I had an attitude of camaraderie which was my motive toward them: I purposed to humble myself for their relationship, even though I was full of my own grief.

In the weakness of my naivete' these people found pleasure in inflicting slanderous words against me: they reviled my character and defamed my name repeatedly.

With Pharisaical facades they distorted and mutilated what I diligently taught and lived.

Lord, how long will they remain in Your grace: restore my identity from these devastating character assignations. Enable this solitary life to escape from the placation of these motives.

I am thankful for Your grace and ability: I praise You among all people.

Please do not allow these acts of hatred that is within my carnal nature to have power over me: do not enable the bite of gossip to take advantage of my innocence.

The words of friendship are not within their vocabulary: malicious and fraudulent acts, deceitful counsel, and subtle lies are being wielded against me. I strive to be at peace with them and You.

It is true that slanderous words are against me everywhere. It is stated as facts as if witnesses were present while these acts and attitudes were supposedly presented.

Being omniscient and omnipotent Lord, You know what is being done: please do not remain silent reveal the truth: do not be far from me.

You are aware of what is going on in my life: I ask for vindication, Lord.

Again, vindicate me Lord, on the authority of Your righteousness. Do not enable their malicious intent prosper at my expense.

Psalm 34 Broken Spirit

I choose to bless the Lord through every new beginning or growth stage I experience; Your gift of transparency is a continual profession of my life expression.

My identity reveals the transparency I have in the Lord: when I am depressed You hear and comply to my pain. I, then, rejoice.

I am nourished and mature in You Lord, I do Your work; I choose to exalt Your definite and conspicuous position of faith, mark of individuality within my identity, and honorable character within my life.

I diligently pursue the Lord; You give value to me and recover me from all fear.

I respect You and am enlightened with insight: my acceptance of You is neither shameful nor confusing.

I cry during times of depression and the You hear me. You teach me to be open and in that I am sustained in going through the anguish and trouble.

The angels of the Lord are ever present round about me, I revere You God, and Your presence strengthens me emotionally and physically.

I admonish myself to be established in You, Lord, You are gracious and good: I am blessed because I confide in You.

I give You reverence, I call myself by Your name: there is no deficiency in You and I esteem You greatly.

Who chooses to placate or display attitudes that are self-made [emotional barriers] walls? These people suffer from mental destitution's and spiritual hunger: if we choose to pursue the Lord, we will not fail at any good thing.

Come closer to Him, builders of the family name. Listen to me: I will teach you what I have learned about the reverence of the Lord.

Can mankind be pleased with our own life by only what we know or what we can do?

We must protect and maintain our attitudes from an adverse environment and wrong behavior; our natural boundaries need to be kept from deceit, treachery, and guile.

I take responsibility for removing myself from wrong environments and to accomplish God's will for my life: I choose to advance my insight and be committed to reconciliation, the exercise of my faith, to labor in the ministry to which I am called, prepare for maturation, and serve God. I choose to strive after health, rest, safety, and the welfare of others. These things I pursue.

The eyes of the Lord watch me walk in His righteousness and His ears are perceptive to my cry.

Your acceptance Lord is not toward those who walk in condemnation or guilt, You forgive and understand our need for confidence.

When the righteous cry, You do listen. You do hear, You do preserve our strength for our walk through adverse trials, anguish, and trouble.

The Lord is intimate with us when we are about to birth whether in souls, character growth, or call to ministry. To those who are broken in their identity; You transform humiliated abuse into openness with all of its expressions and functions.

The grief, sorrows, and hurts of those accounted as righteous are copious: but our Lord preserves and recovers all of these feelings, if we enable Him too.

You guard us with Your substance of strength: no one will be lost while birthing.

If we decide to be self evident in evil carnality, the walk in condemnation and guilt is your choice: if you hate doing what is righteous, your offense is your own.

The Lord preserves and reveals the identity of His servants: we choose to have confidence in His ability to teach, even give understanding of those who choose not to do so.

Psalm 33 Nurturance

I shout for joy in the Lord I choose not to compromise Your righteousness: transparency is a must so that I might choose to be incisive and upright in my attitudes and behaviors.

I praise the Lord openly with expressions of love: I will produce harmonious sounds to You with the song of my life.

I celebrate You with harmonious sounds to rebuild or repair the poetic composition of my life; I play melodiously and find favor to be counted as joyous.

I purpose to be righteous in the Lord so that my attitudes and behaviors are completely stable in Your faith in me.

God loves what is restored and righteous; my confidence in You is full and ever replenished with favor and kindness.

My intellect and enlightenment was made for the Lord's purpose; our time and service is appointed for Your will.

You gather our identity together to move the spirit of humanity within Your people: You distribute Your restorative provision for the enlightenment of Your chosen.

We who walk in Your confidence must revere You Lord: we who inhabit Your world stand in awe of You.

Whenever You speak, it is done: when You command, it is established.

The Lord can bring arrogant plans and purposes of idolaters to a stand still: cunning intentions of the unproductive are sterile.

The counsel of the Lord is established forever, Your purpose and thoughts are toward all generations of mankind.

Blessed is the church because her God is the Lord: You have tried and found Your inheritance acceptable.

You Lord regard this society of people with pleasure for Your intellectual insight: You discern the builders of the family name from the rest of the human race.

You are the foundation of endurance and keenly aware of all who are confident in Your ability.

You mold us like a potter, distressing our identity to form understanding and awareness; You distinguish our behaviors.

Not one ego is rescued by force nor have the resource within itself: even the valiant individual does not have this ability.

Strength without God is a facade of self-protection: He will not birth or protect the ego that is full of deception.

You are with us and we revere You; we wait and embrace the pain of hope in order to trust Your kind rebuke.

This is what delivers our identity from the state of ruin and keeps us nourished in times of extensive hunger.

Our identity must adhere to the Lord for the endurance of the waiting period; You are the protector and defender of my soul.

Then our intellect, emotional understanding, and awareness will rejoice in You. We have bold confidence in You.

We allow Your kind rebuke to be in us Lord, because our trust is in You. You are our hope.