I expose my anguish and stress openly to You Lord, and You listened to my cry.
Defend my identity from lies, deception, and slander; from the treachery of betrayal.
What will it take to restore me to You? What must I do to delude those who betray with deception words.
They are diligent in wounding with insolent words and slinging smoldering hateful embarrassment to my character.
My identity has been damaged, I feel detached from Your people; I will continue to be transparent which causes me grief.
In reality, for those who choose to hate restoration would be inhibited quickly.
I am for peace of mind and healthy attitudes for everyone, but when I teach against carnal values they want to engage in fighting or debate.
Showing posts with label deception. Show all posts
Showing posts with label deception. Show all posts
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Psalm 79 Carnal Mind
The carnal nature within mankind would love to invade our legacy with the Lord; the ability to change our attitude and behaviors has now changed into a perverted ruin of argument among ideologies.
This disgrace has been disguised by a facade of arrogance, it exposes the insecurity of carnal thinking and tries to devastate our identity with stubborn theory.
Guilt is numbed by a shroud of apathy mistaking it as contentment; no one can hide the devastating effect it has on our relationship with You Lord.
Being criticized and defamed by the secularists around us; disrespected and insulted, and being a laughing stock where ever we go.
How long must we endure this ridicule, Lord? Are You not satisfied with are meager attempts to serve You? Will Your mistrust and resentment ignite change toward piety?
Manifest Your disappointment toward the carnal who do not recognize You as Lord, those who are self-governed and unrepentant.
It is these who engulf the old carnal nature of mankind, they are apathetic within their identity and emotional well-being.
Lord do not recall our carnal beginnings as rational souls: enable Your compassion to be projected upon and through us, we are discouraged, exhausted, and depressed.
Nurture and sustain Your heritage, You are our defense; it is Your definite and conspicuous position of faith, mark of individuality in our dynamics, and honorable character within our lifestyle that help us to recover. It is for Your glory, Lord.
Is it the believer who asks where is my God? Enable Your instruction and comprehension to be acknowledged through us for the avenging of our innocence. Do not reject us Lord.
Can You hear the agony within our emotional soul? It is the obedience and strength that sustains the builder of the family name who knows Your expectation.
The carnal nature or its theologies is what deserves the shame and have this guise within its boundaries; it is because of the choices within the carnal mind that chooses to defame You and Your Word.
We are Your people Lord, we study, learn, and implement Your Word. We choose to worship You with our lives forever: we are the celebration of Your transparency to all generations.
This disgrace has been disguised by a facade of arrogance, it exposes the insecurity of carnal thinking and tries to devastate our identity with stubborn theory.
Guilt is numbed by a shroud of apathy mistaking it as contentment; no one can hide the devastating effect it has on our relationship with You Lord.
Being criticized and defamed by the secularists around us; disrespected and insulted, and being a laughing stock where ever we go.
How long must we endure this ridicule, Lord? Are You not satisfied with are meager attempts to serve You? Will Your mistrust and resentment ignite change toward piety?
Manifest Your disappointment toward the carnal who do not recognize You as Lord, those who are self-governed and unrepentant.
It is these who engulf the old carnal nature of mankind, they are apathetic within their identity and emotional well-being.
Lord do not recall our carnal beginnings as rational souls: enable Your compassion to be projected upon and through us, we are discouraged, exhausted, and depressed.
Nurture and sustain Your heritage, You are our defense; it is Your definite and conspicuous position of faith, mark of individuality in our dynamics, and honorable character within our lifestyle that help us to recover. It is for Your glory, Lord.
Is it the believer who asks where is my God? Enable Your instruction and comprehension to be acknowledged through us for the avenging of our innocence. Do not reject us Lord.
Can You hear the agony within our emotional soul? It is the obedience and strength that sustains the builder of the family name who knows Your expectation.
The carnal nature or its theologies is what deserves the shame and have this guise within its boundaries; it is because of the choices within the carnal mind that chooses to defame You and Your Word.
We are Your people Lord, we study, learn, and implement Your Word. We choose to worship You with our lives forever: we are the celebration of Your transparency to all generations.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Psalm 64 Deception
Listen to my concerns Lord, understand my prayer: protect my well being from these acts of hatred from mankind and his ideology.
Suppress any ability to conspire to do evil for their self-gain, keep me from these who practice strife and turmoil; hopefully in vain.
Many use the double edge of Your Word as a cutting instrument to slaughter the innocent and not for discipleship; their desire is to inflict wounds, incite bitterness instead of reason or counsel.
These individuals secretly accuse the upright and plot behind their back: they shift blame on any scapegoat convenient instead of being accountable to You.
Hurtful causes and schemes are their motives: they plan deceptive tricks behind closed doors, they really think no one will notice or disapprove of this behavior because they have done this for many years without conviction.
They disguise and distort the truth with their facade of religious words and lifestyles: no one calls them into account, so to them it is hidden and acceptable.
I thank You God, who teaches with piercing words that convict the soul because of these carnal attitudes and behaviors.
Their words and motives will be used against them by the very people they teach; it will be recognized as Your work in their lives; thus attitudes and behaviors might be changed.
The builders of the family name show reverence and manifest true commitment toward You Lord, it will be revealed in our attitudes and behaviors; we, who are the people of God, practice and understand the lifestyle You have placed before us. We will be the best role models that we can be, as imperfect as we are.
I want to be righteous and glad in You Lord, I love Your confidence in me; I must be honest in my thinking then my emotional well being will be transparent to all.
Suppress any ability to conspire to do evil for their self-gain, keep me from these who practice strife and turmoil; hopefully in vain.
Many use the double edge of Your Word as a cutting instrument to slaughter the innocent and not for discipleship; their desire is to inflict wounds, incite bitterness instead of reason or counsel.
These individuals secretly accuse the upright and plot behind their back: they shift blame on any scapegoat convenient instead of being accountable to You.
Hurtful causes and schemes are their motives: they plan deceptive tricks behind closed doors, they really think no one will notice or disapprove of this behavior because they have done this for many years without conviction.
They disguise and distort the truth with their facade of religious words and lifestyles: no one calls them into account, so to them it is hidden and acceptable.
I thank You God, who teaches with piercing words that convict the soul because of these carnal attitudes and behaviors.
Their words and motives will be used against them by the very people they teach; it will be recognized as Your work in their lives; thus attitudes and behaviors might be changed.
The builders of the family name show reverence and manifest true commitment toward You Lord, it will be revealed in our attitudes and behaviors; we, who are the people of God, practice and understand the lifestyle You have placed before us. We will be the best role models that we can be, as imperfect as we are.
I want to be righteous and glad in You Lord, I love Your confidence in me; I must be honest in my thinking then my emotional well being will be transparent to all.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Psalm 55 Disassociated Aggression
Listen to my explanation Lord, do not be oblivious to my pleadings.
Regard my behavior and give answer to my questions concerning this disorder and/or trouble. I am boldly uncomfortable in this condition.
The acts of hatred are being acted out against me unjustly. I have used constraint behaviors, but this causes anger to swell within my emotional state. I want to retaliate.
The understanding of this behavior causes grievous anxiety within me: the disappointment of these disingenuous attitudes overwhelm me and I am in the state of self-deprivation.
Anxiety causes my body to shake, and terror has obsessed my reasoning faculties.
I tell myself to ignore these feelings wear a facade and no one will know. I really tried to repress this whole situation; then I thought that I would be at peace with myself.
When I tried this behavior I just digressed into deeper depression; holding on to grudges pushed me further into the obsession of hatred. Stop and think about that.
The acceleration of digression with my reality caused the dysfunction of my expressions in attitudes as well as my functional behaviors to display the farce. I am totally confused.
Help me Lord to stop this cycle of negative self-talk and thinking: I can see the self destruction and contention this is causing. The true awareness of my reality is being misdirected by my own thought processes.
From the start to the end of this incident, I have protected myself: I tried the vanity of a pretentious behavior but I was mentally exhausted from the worry of not holding up this farce and facade.
I find myself feeling envious of genuine people around me: trying to manipulate and deceive them with attitudes that control situations behind their back.
It wasn't an adversary that caused this reproach; I could then justify the behavior, neither was it someone who openly hated me by stating some defamation of my character; I could then just ignore it.
But it is my own feeling of desperation that is causing this battle within myself; my own self government, self-awareness and understanding is what is causing my anxiety.
I relish in the self-absorption of co-dependence and socialize within the circles of the household of God who were justified in this position, just like me. We enabled each others attitudes, and behaviors.
This state of desolation had to stop: it was causing dysfunction in the body of believers collectively, and stress within my thinking personally.
I made a decision to call upon You Lord; I know You will help me stop this downward spiral thinking process and keep me sane through the difficult transition of change.
From start to finish, and through all the circumstances in between I have been in total confusion. A battle between my soul and spirit: I must pray and evaluate my thinking. Then You Lord will give understanding to me so that I might change this destructive behavior.
You will redeem my identity with this refreshing and restoring health from these feelings of hostility that I enabled: many believers are in this same emotional turmoil.
You can hear and understand our unstable thinking. You can cause this awareness within our rational being by exercising our humility. Even the mature ones who are established in this behavior. Stop and think about that. This is because they have decided that maturity does not require a renewed identity in You. You must be revered always.
My main purpose was to protect myself with flattering words. I stupidly thought that it would build a protective wall around me. Constructive criticism of Your Word causes the conflict between my spirit and rational being. Your Word is a cutting instrument carving away my carnal opinions and self-protective attitudes.
I must stop thinking about past mistakes and offenses that I or others have caused. The Lord will nourish and maintain my spirit: it is He that will restore me to a righteous attitude and He will never leave me in despair.
Only with You Lord, will these past attitudes and behaviors be subdued and these learned carnal behaviors be humbled: jealousy and betrayal will not separate my new beginning with You; I am bold, confident, and choose to have hope in You.
Regard my behavior and give answer to my questions concerning this disorder and/or trouble. I am boldly uncomfortable in this condition.
The acts of hatred are being acted out against me unjustly. I have used constraint behaviors, but this causes anger to swell within my emotional state. I want to retaliate.
The understanding of this behavior causes grievous anxiety within me: the disappointment of these disingenuous attitudes overwhelm me and I am in the state of self-deprivation.
Anxiety causes my body to shake, and terror has obsessed my reasoning faculties.
I tell myself to ignore these feelings wear a facade and no one will know. I really tried to repress this whole situation; then I thought that I would be at peace with myself.
When I tried this behavior I just digressed into deeper depression; holding on to grudges pushed me further into the obsession of hatred. Stop and think about that.
The acceleration of digression with my reality caused the dysfunction of my expressions in attitudes as well as my functional behaviors to display the farce. I am totally confused.
Help me Lord to stop this cycle of negative self-talk and thinking: I can see the self destruction and contention this is causing. The true awareness of my reality is being misdirected by my own thought processes.
From the start to the end of this incident, I have protected myself: I tried the vanity of a pretentious behavior but I was mentally exhausted from the worry of not holding up this farce and facade.
I find myself feeling envious of genuine people around me: trying to manipulate and deceive them with attitudes that control situations behind their back.
It wasn't an adversary that caused this reproach; I could then justify the behavior, neither was it someone who openly hated me by stating some defamation of my character; I could then just ignore it.
But it is my own feeling of desperation that is causing this battle within myself; my own self government, self-awareness and understanding is what is causing my anxiety.
I relish in the self-absorption of co-dependence and socialize within the circles of the household of God who were justified in this position, just like me. We enabled each others attitudes, and behaviors.
This state of desolation had to stop: it was causing dysfunction in the body of believers collectively, and stress within my thinking personally.
I made a decision to call upon You Lord; I know You will help me stop this downward spiral thinking process and keep me sane through the difficult transition of change.
From start to finish, and through all the circumstances in between I have been in total confusion. A battle between my soul and spirit: I must pray and evaluate my thinking. Then You Lord will give understanding to me so that I might change this destructive behavior.
You will redeem my identity with this refreshing and restoring health from these feelings of hostility that I enabled: many believers are in this same emotional turmoil.
You can hear and understand our unstable thinking. You can cause this awareness within our rational being by exercising our humility. Even the mature ones who are established in this behavior. Stop and think about that. This is because they have decided that maturity does not require a renewed identity in You. You must be revered always.
My main purpose was to protect myself with flattering words. I stupidly thought that it would build a protective wall around me. Constructive criticism of Your Word causes the conflict between my spirit and rational being. Your Word is a cutting instrument carving away my carnal opinions and self-protective attitudes.
I must stop thinking about past mistakes and offenses that I or others have caused. The Lord will nourish and maintain my spirit: it is He that will restore me to a righteous attitude and He will never leave me in despair.
Only with You Lord, will these past attitudes and behaviors be subdued and these learned carnal behaviors be humbled: jealousy and betrayal will not separate my new beginning with You; I am bold, confident, and choose to have hope in You.
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