Psalm 106 Strong willed

I want to be transparent in the Lord, I am thankful of the direction You give me: You are beautiful in favor, bountiful in kindness, and gracious in love toward Your people; Your kindness is rebuke and merciful reprimand will endure us forever.

Who understands Your powerful accomplishments within us Lord? Who reveals themselves in pure transparency beside You?

Satisfied am I when I guard and protect Your divine law. But who can accomplish or exercise or control themselves in doing what is righteous all the time?

Mark me to be recognized with Your acceptance that You developed within Your chosen: commit to me Your call of transparency.

I want to see Your graciousness, so I will rejoice in the joy of Your people; I want to possess Your transparency,

I have sinned Lord; just as my forefathers before me disappoint You, I have violated my commitment to You.

My forefathers did not understand or behave themselves within the miracles You performed during their troubled times; they did not recall Your kind rebuke or merciful reprimand; they chose to disobey in bitterness and walked in unstable behaviors and raging anger.

You preserved their identity for the memories of the individual, their strength and power within so that it might be recognized and used as a lesson for us.

You rebuked the raging anger and cynicism: our forefathers lost their identity and did not mature because of the anxiety and compulsive disorders.

You avenged their identity from the ability to hate; You changed their strong wills and acts of hatred.

Their identity was overwhelmed with anguish and sorrow; there was no preservation within their unity.

Once the reassurance of Your behaviors, counsel, and purpose was realized; they were revived with praises of You and Your ability.

Yet once again they promptly forgot what You accomplished within their lives and what their commitment was to You; they did not seek or consider Your counsel.

These people became obsessive in their carnality and provoked You Lord in their desolation.

Your love restored them to counsel; but they were inadequate in the knowledge of You and lost the ability to refresh themselves spiritually.

Finally provoked with resentment and deficient in grace they grew weary and tried to consecrate themselves to You.

Filled with the boldness of transparency and You as their life source they did not suppress You as their Father.

But anger began to initiate among the young; and rage engulfed those who walked in guilt.

Some would praise You and give their thanksgiving when the desolate times came; but others grew depressed and chose to wear facades to hide their shame.

These chose to change their identity in honor of You for the facade of vanity within their ideology.

They forgot You as the God of their identity; You were their accomplishment during stressful times.

They could distinguish control of confidence over that of anger; even though fear was the roar of that anger.

You Lord consider our desolation because no one compelled Your people to maturity. They retreated instead to indifference that soon became destructive with the feelings of apathy.

They also rejected any trust with Your Word; they were not established in Your commitments or purpose, so counsel and reason was wasted.

Acknowledging You or Your Word was ignored, rebellion was conspicuous and secular facades were considered a normal attitude and behavior.

But You in Your mercy magnified Your power, means, and direction against these obsessions; this in turn was overwhelming to them and they fell on their face.

The feelings of rejection and abandonment were deep within the society, they diffused their own form of confidence.

Because of their arrogance they did not commit to holy attitudes and behaviors, of course apathy was inevitable.

Apathy changed to indignant behaviors of abuse, manipulation, and seduction: the pestilence of depression was widespread among them.

Someone must have determination to establish courage and say with words of brass to defeat this pestilent attitude.

Someone with righteous motives and be esteemed among the people within this generation.

Once again the attitudes and behaviors displeased the Lord; they became restless and created dissension among the people. It ended with brokenness and fear, this did not mend.

Rebellion against You Lord and Your reality for this generation ends bitterly; anger is used as a natural boundary for lines to be drawn.

Righteous boundaries were drawn by You Lord, but the people ignored them.

Commitment to pseudo theories and not Your Word gives way to carnality and behavioral "norms" that carry sin with it.

It is this kind of thinking that enslaves mankind to idolatrous worry, grief, and anger: this is a mental trap.

This infected the builders of the family name with malignant acts of insolence;

Motivations of guilt became rampant within the builders of the family name; they offered up idolatrous emotional acts of humiliation because their confidence is corrupted with shame.

So contaminated was in their thinking, they committed spiritual adultery with all the abuse and seductions of it.

Now I understand why You Lord were so grieved against the chosen and why You were disappointed with Your inheritance.

Enable those who think this way to be intimidated and jealous of each other: place their hatred of each other as their motivations.

Acts of hatred causes distress and overwhelming hardship on our identities; they will be humbled into subjection by their own strength and motivations.

Numerous times You Lord have liberated and redeemed us; but with embittered rebellion our determination was humbled by perversity.

None the less, You are always considerate toward us and our circumstances of anguish; You discern our grief.

You remember Your promise to Your people and our call to transparency; You have pity because of Your deep continuous compassion for us.

Your great compassion is beyond the measure of mankind's understanding; You do not hold Your people hostage, emotionally or physically.

Avenge us Lord, enable us to escape this intimidation and jealousy in order that we might confess our thanksgiving and worship to You. I want transparency in my praise to You.

I want and need to be grateful toward You forever and ever: enable every human being to say "so be it". Praise the Lord.