Psalm 22 Feelings of Abandonment

You are my strength and my God; I feel like You have let go of my life, I do not like that feeling. Why do I feel that You are distancing Yourself from me? Your security and presence are far from me, I feel alone and in emotional pain.

I cry with every new experience or developmental growth stage of my existence, but this time I have no answer from You: this time has been a difficult adverse season that causes my mind to scream.

I know that You are holy, it is You who establishes the church and the people in her. I know she will prevail.

My spiritual forefathers had total confidence in You; they had boldness and security in Your presence, because of their steadfast faith, You committed Yourself to them.

When they cried to You, they were preserved and stabled: their trust in You was never an issue and they were not disappointed.

Unlike my forefathers, I am tormented with insecurity, I am numb with grief: a disgrace and defamed by gossips, disesteemed and rejected by my own family.

It seems like everyone who knows me ridicules anything I say or do, they have abandoned me. They mock me with words and behaviors that sting, they shun my extended hand of fellowship.

I commit these attitudes to You Lord, but I feel like running away from it all: they say I relied on You, then You rejected me and laughed because I felt favored among the believers.

You are the one who gave me new life and another reason for living: You did give me a reason for hope, even when I was just a spiritual babe.

I was dedicated to You by my mother from birth: You have been my God from conception and You are my God now.

Please do not be distant now Lord; I feel the time of anguish causing this distress is gripping my throat; there is no protection or counsel for me in this situation but You.

Many frustrations, disappointments, and defeats have surrounded my past: strong trials have taught lessons of self control and have given me the ability to wait.

Humanity has ripped me apart with slander and lies, with devouring and rabid gossip they have shattered my name.

I am emotionally exhausted and physically weak, I am disassociated from any inner strength, my strong will and intellectual understanding is in rage; I am in the full grip of fear and grief, which is the source of my insecurity.

My emotional strength is shamefully broken and my ability is useless: my words are hard and indifferent, full of sarcasm; I am reduced to the mental state of depression.

The unbelievers taunt me and the hypocrites ridicule plague my thinking: believers display themselves friendly to my face but attack with sarcasm behind my back: they have broken my heart and my fellowship of trust is now slander.

I can chronicle the strength of my being, so I might analyze and discern my motives.

I feel stripped and naked mentally, spiritually, and socially; people wager to see how long it will be before I am destroyed in every area of my life.

Do not be distant to me now Lord: You are the very strength that will vindicate me.

Defend and preserve my identity from this cutting force and its destructive affect; rescue my self-esteem from the slander of the unbeliever and hypocrite.

Free me from these violent attitudes and critical behaviors: I know You can respond to me with compassion and power.

I will validate Your definite position in my faith, mark of individuality within my mental health, and honorable character within my life to all who know me: I will be transparent and enlightened by Your favor.

Let anyone who is reverent in the Lord, praise Him with me: all of you who are His children, glorify Him with me: stand in awe of His greatness, all of you who are conceived by His love, can now be ruled by His love.

Our God has not, nor will He despise the humility of those depressed [emotionally or spiritually]; neither has he concealed His presence from mankind. When anyone cries for help our Lord will answer, He discerns His own.

My transparency is in the Lord and will be seen by the multitude: I will keep my promises to God.

Those who are teachable will be spiritually and emotionally nurtured to health and fulfill their calling: they will be enlightened before the Lord and pursue Him diligently: they in turn will restore and nourish all believers who listen.

Mankind from every generation will remember this and have the chance to serve the Lord: all believing nations will worship the Lord our God.

This universe is the Lord's: He is our counselor, ruler, and the almighty power of every nation.

The people who are wealthy in His favor will give reverence: all those who are humble will worship Him, there is no one who can restore or nurture mankind in his own identity.

The conception of righteousness only begins in Him: this will be celebrated in every generation of mankind.

We choose to come and stand boldly to declare His faithfulness to anyone that will choose to grow in maturity and commit to His service.

Psalm 8 Individuality

Lord You are my Lord, powerful is Your definite and conspicuous position within my life, You mark of individuality gives me ownership, and honorable character give me identity as Your son. It is Your direction and restoration that is Your glory to mankind and above all human understanding.

From the mind of Your young ones, even the spiritual babes speak of Your established strength within their being because the acts of hatred fail them and You teach us to stop holding grudges.

I not only teach but learn also about Your insights and enlightenment's within my soul; also the labor and operation of Your capable hands establish the universe we dwell in.

I ponder within my thoughts, what is so special about the human race that You would mark us individually with Your love? We are the builders of the family name for all of humanity, whom You are totally committed to. You choose to commune with us!

You chose to make us with less power than Your angels which was wisdom on Your part; yet You encircle us with Your divine protection and presence.

You have entrusted mankind with the labor and operation of this earth: You have appointed all things on this planet under our care and control.

Birds that fly, and all that swim in Your magnificent sea are in Your control.

Lord, You are my Lord, how powerful is Your definite and conspicuous position in my life, Your mark of individuality as my ownership, and honorable character within my identity as Your son.

Psalm 7 Vindication

Lord You are my God, I have chosen to place my confidence in You: please nurture and sustain me from these people who choose to oppress and discriminate against me, and help me to endure this trial.

There are those with ungodly attitudes who devour my character with ravenous cruelty, tearing my identity to bits, there is no one who has come to my defense.

Dear Father in heaven You know my motives, if I have purposely done anything close to what they have accused me of, then I ask for Your conviction upon my soul;

If I premeditated any of these schemes against one person, especially those I worship with [I have purposely ignored those who spread gossip]:

Then enable these acts of hatred to torment my inner being, allow all this abuse to disturb my rest, allow these works of the flesh to oppress my confidence in You and my self esteem to be pulverized. Stop and think about that.

Do something Lord, anything, get angry with these attitudes, put an end to these acts of hatred which my adversaries have chosen as their behaviors: open Your eyes Lord and just demand they stop.

Enable these believers to be surrounded by Your presence: judge my behaviors and attitudes Lord, and on my behalf return Your compassion to me according to everything You know about me.

Please stop this slanderous hatred coming from these people; but give enlightenment and wisdom to those who seek Your face and favor: because You are a righteous God and You prove the motives of my mind, will, and emotional well-being.

You are my defense mechanism Lord; who vindicates my character that directly affects my self-esteem and confidence.

God You will judge the righteous motives and the individuals who choose to abide in them; but You are not pleased if we deliberately destroy His people with our mouth. It angers You.

God will prepare chosen instruments to wound our rebellious state of mind with reproach and reproof: He will allow those who choose to slander and gossip to reap what they have sown.

Just look how the human race prefers to pledge themselves to trouble and then think they look superior, this is nothing but vanity; which in turn causes misery and anxiety not to mention exhaustion from keeping up the facade.

The more they gossip the more they weave a web that entangles their own lives; their own tongues will destroy their character and reputation.

Anxiety that they have caused will be ever present within their own lives and dull their thinking; these choices cause this turmoil within their conscience.
I worship and trust in the Lord because He is consistently righteous and I will sing praises of His definite and conspicuous position in my life. His is the maker of my individuality; He molds my character for His purpose. He is my vindicator and restorer, because I let Him.

Psalm 5 Guidance

Dear God please be attentive to the expressions of my concerns, please discern my broken and emotional disorder.
Be ever cognizant of my complaint, my Counselor, my God because it is only You who can judge my intercession.
I thank You for recognizing my voice and deciding to give me instruction for this new beginning [growth stage] that I choose to face; and with each stage of this new beginning I battle within myself to exhaustion and then give up to beg for Your guidance.
It is not within Your righteousness plan to be please with my bad attitudes and/or wrong behaviors; ei..condemning others or going into denial: neither will any of mankind's negative attributes be found in Your glory.
Anyone who chooses to create a facade cannot stand steadfast in Your knowledge or presence: You despise all negative attitudes and behaviors whether publicly or in secret, anything that mankind would choose to practice to deceive.
You Lord will allow those who purpose in their heart to spread gossip or lies to lose their identity in You: I know Lord, You detest the murdering of innocents [whether by tongue or weapon], You also abhor the practice of deceitful manipulation, betrayal, and fraud.
It is my choice to dwell in Your presence and thank You for Your needful rebuke of love toward me: I choose to humble myself in Your presence and give all my reverence to You.
Guide me Lord, because it is in Your righteous rebuke where my feelings of hostilities are revealed and a new beginning is created in me by Your power.
I do not trust the ideological counsel within the knowledge of man from which I cannot rely or depend: their motivational instruction utters perverse words that damage godly convictions; and their words of advise placates the carnal desires of mankind; they justify their motives for personal gain.
Reveal their destructive theories and motives God, cause their arrogant teachings to be revealed as the self absorbed psycho-babble it really is; reveal their sinful attitudes and behaviors that are steeped in the lust of their flesh; disinherit those who choose to be willfully disobedient to You.
Enable those who choose to confide in You to rejoice: allow us to praise Your definite and conspicuous position with joy, because You protect and defend us: we love Your mark of identity upon us and the honorable character that only You can satisfy our souls with.
Only You Lord can bless those who choose to walk in righteousness: we adore how You encircle us with Your approval and acceptance.

Introduction

Webster defines paraphrase: "A restatement of the text, passage, or work giving the meaning another form; used as a process for understanding in a educational method." To STUDY scripture within God's Holy Word [alias: The Bible] one should NOT use a paraphrase. An individual should use a translation; ie..The New King James Version, The New International Version, The Amplified Version,etc. This paraphrase is used to broaden an understanding of one's opinion of one of the said translations of scripture. THIS IS A NONDENOMINATIONAL PARAPHRASE.
These understandings and opinions of this work come from a personal experience with Jesus Christ, God's Son and Our Savior; and a counseling practice for nearly thirty years. The author has paraphrased the Psalms for family, friends, and clients for comfort, direction, counsel, and guidance. Jeremiah 4:3 &4 "Break up your fallow ground, and sow not among thorns, circumcise yourselves to the Lord and take away the foreskins of your heart. Ye men of Judah and inhabitants of Jerusalem: lest my fury come forth like fire and burn that none can quench it, because of your evil doings."
This blog is intended for the mature Christians, who are struggling with personal trials, spiritual direction, or counsel in their walk with God. It may also be used for those who wish to give give comfort, direction, or counsel to someone that may be having difficulty within their spiritual walk.
Proverbs 27:17 "Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countance of his friend." So friends, it is my desire to share my experiences in God's Word and my understanding of a personal relationship with Him: as a Father, a counselor, a friend, the Prince of Peace, and Almighty God.
Young or immature Christians may find this work harsh, direct, and hard to digest; for their pallets it is....
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